I’ve procrastinated and stated writing this post at least a dozen times. For months, I have prayed and fasted; I’ve sought counsel from the Lord and from the wise people He put in my life. But it doesn’t make this any easier to say:
Tirzah Magazine will be closing, effective today.
We’ve had an extraordinary four years. I don’t know about you, but Tirzah Mag transformed me. It strengthened my faith and though this platform, I met thousands of amazing young women striving to live a set apart life in the modern world.
Thank you to every single one of you has ever read a word on this site, but especially to those of you who actively got involved – through volunteering, writing, editing, leaving comments, following us on social media, praying for this community and for your financial support. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
Every time I think of my life without Tirzah and without all of you, my heart aches. I don’t want to be cliche or dramatic, but it’s true. You are a part of my heart. You always will be. Your words, your testimonies, your prayers, and your support of this ministry has humbled and inspired me.
When I first started Tirzah my first year of law school, I couldn’t even begin to dream what the Lord would do with it. But, I’m now a year into my legal career and I feel the Lord calling me to bloom where I’m planted – to live out the words I have said to y’all so many times: your mission field and calling are right where you are. I wrestled for months trying to find meaning in a calling to a secular career instead of taking this ministry full time.
Little by little, the Lord unclenched my hands that held on so tightly to something I knew for a long time I need to let go of. I cried a lot. I prayed. I negotiated. I questioned. But in the end, I surrendered and repented.
Because God only ever asked me to write – to share the words He put on my heart through my daily Bible study. And when I needed community of other young women seeking the Lord, He let me start and steward Tirzah for a season. But then after three years, He asked me to put my focus back on writing, because I have a few books and devotionals that the Holy Spirit has put in my heart, but I just haven’t had the time to work because all my spare time was spent on stewarding Tirzah well. Tirzah had grown into a thriving ministry and I wanted to build something of it – I saw so much potential and there is so much need. But no matter how good it seemed to me, the Lord just kept telling me that this isn’t what He has asked of me – at least not in this season.
So, maybe a year or ten years from now, the Lord will bring me back here. But for now, we’ll be closing our virtual doors. Thanks to your generous donations last year, we were able to pay for hosting for this site until the end of 2018. However, we will not be publishing new content. This community will always be a part of me, and I will re-visit the idea of starting Tirzah Mag back up for 2019, but that is a decision I am leaving with the Lord for now.
So, what’s next?
Our shop will stay open through the end of December 2017, so if you haven’t yet gotten a copy of any of our e-books, now is the time to do so!
In December, we’ll announce the details for how you can join Tirzah in the Word 2018 – that is one thing from this year that has been especially transforming and that I feel God prompting me to do for one more year. Tirzah in the Word is a private Bible study group with weekly assigned readings and bi-weekly live Bible studies. This year, a group of us are finishing up studying in depth the New Testament and it has been an amazing experience to walk through those pages and lessons together – with women of all ages and from all over the world!
In 2018, we will be studying the women of the Bible together. Due to the nature of the group though, we keep it a pretty small circle and limit spots. Keep an eye on your inbox and our social media feeds for more details!
God willing, I will also be blogging regularly on my personal blog – the Bible Study girl. Because God keeps pouring the words in, and I know that if I don’t share them with others, I will have to answer for that on Judgement Day. It’s not a new ministry or anything fancy. Just a girl, her Bible study and words. This time, I am reminding myself to stay small and wait on the Lord for direction instead of trying to build something on my own or step outside of the sphere of work God has given me. There are no email lists or business social media accounts. Just a glimpse into my daily Bible study as I embark on another journey of reading the Bible in full in 2018. Because, y’all, I just want to write and share what the Lord is doing in my heart and life through my daily Bible study with you.
I will also be using my personal Instagram account for daily accountability as I read the Bible in full in 2018, so if that is one of your goals for 2018 (or you merely want to fill your feed with encouraging and edifying content), then you can follow me here and I will do my best to share a few times a week what I glean from my daily Bible study and to also hold you accountable to go to the Word daily.
I am also currently working on a novel, Becoming Tirzah, which is partially inspired by this community and the work God has been doing in my heart the last few years. I am also writing a non-fiction book based on this post, The Modern Girl’s Guide to Godly Living, which captures a lot of the topics and discussions we’ve had in this community.
At the forefront of all of these writing projects though is my newest devotional: Expectant (working title). I have recently gone through a season of waiting – a season that ended up being more fruitful in my spiritual life than any other season, and so when I felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to share what I’ve learned with y’all, this 30-day devotional was born. Because we are always waiting for something: a spouse, healing, a child, a job, community, forgiveness, and the list could go on and on. How you wait though is what can make a waiting season either joyful and fruitful, or dark and barren.
The exciting part is that God willing, this devotional will be available in PRINT! I know y’all will be as excited as I am about this since you’ve only been asking for something like this for years 😉 I am aiming for a spring 2018 release, but you know as my Tirzah girls, you’ll get first dibs on this (incentive for you to keep following the Tirzah social media pages! Although I will also announce it on my personal blog and Instagram!).
Granted, each of these projects is the very beginning stages, so your prayers would be especially appreciated (and if any of you know literary agents, please let me know! That is definitely one big piece of all of this that I am praying on and trusting the Lord to provide!).
Please stay in touch! I am most active on Instagram, although I will also be posting regularly on my personal blog. Send me regular update emails about what’s going on in your life (my contact info is on my personal blog).
Instagram is probably the best way to stay in touch with me personally, because y’all, I do want to stay in touch with you – to keep up with the milestones in your life as many of you start college, others graduate and start adulting; some of you are on embarking on missions, new jobs, starting a family, etc…for many of those milestones, Tirzah has already been there through our prayer wall and you contribution of articles to the site, and even our Facebook groups.
Because this really isn’t good-bye. One day, God willing, we will all meet at the throne of God, where there will be no more tears and no more sadness. And maybe, we’ll even get a chance to meet again on this earth (if you’re ever in St. Louis or Springfield, Missouri or see on Instagram that I’m in your city please let me know!).
In parting, my wish for you is this:
May the Lord guide you continually, giving you water when you are dry and restoring your strength. You will be like a well-watered garden, like an ever-flowing spring (Is. 58:11). I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources He will empower you with inner strength through His Spirit. Then Christ will make His home in your heart as you trust in Him. Your roots will grow deep into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep His love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God (Eph. 3:16-19).
With all my love,
Founder + Editor in Chief
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